Saturday, December 6, 2008

why do i listen to my conciouce

it always leads me into trouble. first i shouldn't of listened to my uncle, the only reason i told him is that i thought he would be happy for me for finding the woman of my dreams (no joke tay is pretty perfect with a FEW minor flaws but thats for another time) but no he is a manipulator and for 2 hours he had me convinced that taylor wasn't good for me and im doubting myself. it doesn't know anything about me and taylor because he doesn't know taylor the way i do.

ok back to my stupid conciouse i decide to listen to it one more time!! that was the STUPIDEST things i had ever done. i told taylor what my uncle said........i had just opened pandora's box!! why!!! whay did i do this!!! right then things changed.....i can hear her falling out of love with me....she isn't as amused as much to the things i say...she rarely texts me now......she doesn't even say she loves me.

its breaking my heart!! i never wanted this. we have only been broken up not even a whole day and i feel a part of me dying because i know that she wont come back to me. all i ever wanted to do was to mak her happy and i failed miserably.


i.......i love her.................i love tay thats the 4th millionth time i've said that and thats also the 4th millionth time i've meant it.

im sorry i had ever hurt you taylor.....i wish you would come back. =(

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